I Had A Dream

I had a dream last night that I wish were true~
It's so rare and so few that I remember them~
My 3rd and I spoke and we cleared the air~
I finally got some reasons why things are~
Not what I thought but still not good~
I was able to speak as well and say my piece~
We spoke for a bit like we always had~
It ended with us agreeing to talk again~

I can't remember that last time that I woke up and remembered a dream that I had. It is rare for me. And I almost never remember a dream that is a fantasy or has strange things in it. The few dreams that I can wake up and remember are very life like and real.

I woke this morning wishing this dream were true. I just dreamed that we spoke. That's all. And that was such a good thing because I was shut out so abruptly. I never really got to even say good bye and I never got reasons for what happened.

There were no signs in her place that someone had replaced me though I believe that has long since happened. There were greeting cards thanking her for moderating a forum and there was a teenage boy who was deaf in the house. I was invited to stay for supper and we talked as though nothing was wrong. Her boys weren't in the dream at all.

We didn't reconcile or even agree to give ourselves a chance. In fact we didn't even talk about it, not the breakup or anything about us. But I was so relieved and so happy just to see her and to be able to speak again.

I tend to believe that I have and remember these life like dreams for a reason but I don't want to give myself any false hopes. I still awoke and went straight into prayer and begged my God that this would be a sign or a telling of things to come.

Yesterday I made some commitments and took a leap of faith in hopes that things may improve. The timing couldn't be more unusual or be more set to make believe that perhaps it is a sign. But then again I made a rash decision last night and posted elsewhere that I know she reads and I fear that only made things worse and not better.

So I'll pray and hope but I'm not going to let myself get excited.